my apologies.

i'd like to apologize for the last blog post i left. it's generally not my style to curse so much & be THAT negative. i was just really upset. & sometimes, my mouth gets the best of me :(

..on another note, i can't believe sunday was july 4th!!! why is time going by so fast?! i need for it to slow down (just a tad). i had a wonderful july 4th. we did the usual (my aunts for cookout & fireworks). i've had peyton since saturday. we've had a ball. he enjoys time with jeff & i and we definitely enjoy time with him :) he's going home today! i won't know what to do with myself, lol. i can't wait to watch something OTHER than nick jr/sprout.

i re-joined weight watchers two weekends ago. it's just something i know i HAVE to do. i can't stand being unhealthy. with my heart condition, being healthy is the most important thing to me...and i get so MAD at myself for letting it get this far. but i've vowed that this is it. i have to change my ways & take responsibility for my actions, which i have failed at before. i have asked God to help me in this journey. i need support and love that only HE can give me. i will make this last attempt the successful one..i am determined.

before i ramble anymore, i am gonna end this! later<3

PS: 9 more days til my bestest is here. single digits make me happy :D