...and for what?

i try so hard..and for what? to get knocked down. i'm so sick and tired of being unappreciated. i get bitched at for not doing "enough" and then i step my game up, and go unappreciated. wtf. who in their right mind would actually wanna do shit for not even a "thanks baby"...? idk, but not me..i thrive on compliments, motivation, hell even an "i love you" would work at this point in time. YES..we're broke. YES..i'm stressed. but damn - i (unlike him) realize that it's a part of life. there will be struggles. there will be times when shit just doesn't seem right. but if he really loved me like he claimed, he wouldn't be pushing me away in times like this. in fact, he should be holding me closer.

aksljdaslkjd i'm just so pissed right now. i can't even think straight. oh & i don't feel good...faneffingtastic. my throat hurts. like to swallow :( not a good thing. this is gonna be real short - but i just needed to vent!