learning to embrace change

ohhh so many changes have occured in my life as of lately. where to begin? first of all - jeff and i are expecting our first child!! the EDD is 9/8 but will have a more exact date on 2/2 when i go for my first ultrasound (i cannot hardly wait!!). we are beyond excited, and words can't express how blessed we feel :) i keep thinking about how much our lives are gonna change once this baby is here, and i can't say i'm not scared...first time parents?? WHAT!

secondly, i broke my leg on 12/22. it has NOT been fun, to say the least. it happened while i was at work, and let's just say...i've been in pain. i've had nothing but problems with it since the get go, and things have still not gotten any better. all i can do is PRAY that i start healing quickly :)

hmm...what else? i can't wait to go back to work! i have gone absolutely stir crazy doing NOTHING with my life and i miss my kiddo's so much :( they have probably forgotten all about me!! jeff is still at carmax but this whole only getting paid commission thing is really starting to make us both nervous! he is on a job hunt, once again. he wants to be back in the kitchen because it's where he is most happy. we are hoping for a job that has a night shift so he can be at home with the baby for the first year or so until i'm "ready" to put him/her in daycare. i don't get a discount at my job until he/she is walking (aka, in the toddler room). i'm not sure how i feel about having an infant in daycare anyway...it's just not my cup of tea. SO that's the plan -- jeff work nights, i work days. it's going to be so hard, but sooo worth it :) only problem is that finding a job is HARD now-a-days. i'm glad he has one, but idk how long it will last especially if he is only bringing home comission and NO ONE is purchasing vehicles. thankfully we have a little while to get it all panned out :)

another stressful situation? our lease at our current apartment is up in april. january is flying by and i know before we know it it will be time to make a decision. IF we renew here, they WILL go up on our rent..no doubt. & we already pay an outrageous amount for a simple one bedroom. we wanted to upgrade to a bigger apartment (at least a 2 bedroom) but we don't know how much it will cost and don't want to dig ourselves a hole we can't get out of, ESPECIALLY with a little one coming. then, jeff's mom mentioned us finding a 4 bedroom house and splitting the rent with them (his mom and sister). i like the idea - but idk how serious she was! we have looked at houses for rent and have found a few that catch our eye, but again..we are so scared to make sudden movements! and plus, almost EVERYWHERE requires a credit check & neither of our credit scores are anywhere near where they need to be :( IDK i'm letting go & letting GOD...he always steers me in the right direction!

i'm going to start using this blog more often, i want to really blog my pregnancy so i can look back when it's all said and done :)